Hardly faking it anymore: Puddle's third thread

[S.T. _I Made It!]

"Really, where do you see that? I feel like I've pulled way back re him. "

well, it's more of a prediction, based on what I'm seeing right now. there is innocent flirting going on and I totally see myself in your position right now.

I didn't realize you were pulling yourself away from him. I assumed the turndowns for his invites were due to real reasons, being with the kids. Were you using them as an excuse? If so, I'm sorry for the assumption.

I can just really see myself where you are right now. I'm actually a lot better with guys, and have always had more guy friends than girls (except post sitch) and it was just fun, lots of innocent flirting. except when it was a guy I thought was really cute, and he was really filling my needs at the time (because my H was very distant then). It was SO innocent in the beginning, and it turned way bad. I'm still so shocked at what I did. it was totally not me. so that's why I say all these things. If my H and I had never resolved our problem during my A (we weren't M yet, but engaged) than I could definitely have seen myself going with it much longer than it had and it totally could have ruined things for sure. I just don't want you to get in that position. Because I know how good you could feel if you allowed yourself to go further with this guy, only because he's cute and fun to be with, and it's almost like you'd be having an A too and the rush from it and the new feelings you get totally mess with your mind. But I'm really glad you understand how feelings can come and go. I didn't have that frame of mind back then, and I became soooooo uterly confused with my feelings.

does that make more sense?