Decided I'm not gonna put myself through that panic and pain again. Even if he's being stupid, he's gonna have to deal with it because I just don't have the energy or the desire to dump that much negative into my life worrying about what he's up to.
I love this Piglet...I went through this exact thing a few weeks ago, and the panic was awful. I definitely feel this way, and I appreciate you sharing it with me. I don't need or want the negative in my life, no sense bringing it on myself.
As for being in 'piecing' forever...I suspect that you might be right when you say that maybe that's the way M is supposed to be. It certainly won't do for us to start taking things for granted again, otherwise, what have we learned?
That said, I think we all need to expect the ups and downs too...no journey is without its bumps in the road, what matters is how we handle them. I think my biggest concern right now is coming up with a strategy for handling the biggest ones (i.e. his possible stumbles in fidelity) in a way that is respectful for both of us. I don't have a problem with forgiveness, but neither do I want to sit by and allow him to put our family in jeopardy with his weakness...KWIM?
