Spoke to doc & reduced dosage to manageable level....much better
WAW said she is spending an overnight at a far away spa (big $$$)
To be alone & rejuvenate...anyone buying it?....my kids don’t either...I have to be careful to defend her to them so they don’t hate her...I am exercising & eating right & feeling better & better... still have sad & fearful times...there was a parade of beautiful young women at the deli yesterday & one smiled at me as I held the door feeling confident & alive ....I may live after all!!!! \:\) I have a great family & support group in AA & OA
And this site...my therapist & my phone coach...I am doing many things right...Sunday was my day to get decked out....put on my alligator boots & a crisp white shirt & left just saying goodbye at 9am...hoped in my new convertible & went to meeting after meeting...all of a sudden she calls me :)... wants to know what my plans are for the day cause she is taking the kids to feed the ducks & then she lets me know shed like me home around 5 so she can go to bible study...I didn’t know what to say so I didn’t say anything...later in the afternoon my sister asked me if I would go with her to check out a restaurant where a friend is getting married so I text WAW that something has come up & since she was out all day & night the day before & isn’t even coming home the next day (spa) maybe she could stay with the kids...she left them anyway to go to bible study but agreed to skip her meeting after & come home....I am not going to play head games with her but I’m not supposed to be "so predictable" & a little mystery is a good thing....I felt better being out of the house with people who support me....I love you all

why im here
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1247860&page=1#Post1247860
me 47
w 44
m 20
s 18
s 14
s 8
bomb dropped 10/8/07