LG, Sorry to hear mediation was postponed. Or maybe that's a good thing. Anyway, the thing about mediation... and even divorce, is that nothing is final. My MC once told me that she's had couples who literally call off the D the day before the hearing. And she said that she even has people who have gotten remarried.
It sounds like your W is moving quickly on this D. Do you have any sense as to why?
Have you been to the MLC boards? I was there for over a year adn I can't even tell you how helpful it was. These are people who's spouses have basically left the M, usually with an A involved, who suddenly claim they are not happy. The theory is that this is often due to a midlife crisis (which is really more about depression than it is about getting tatoos and sport cars). And in an effort to search for instant happiness, they assume their M is the reason for their unhappiness. Anyway, take a look over there, if you haven't already. It's an amazing group of supportive people.
What you said about my ability to trust is a good point. What we could have in this M is the trade off to always having that doubt in my head. And this past few days, I know I have been letting my doubts and negative thoughts get in the way of the healing process. Sometimes I can't help myself.
Married 9 years Kids 5 and 6 Bomb 2006 H back and forth for a year M now back on track
