You sound good, and busy \:\) Isn't in strange how the past can just reach out and grab us in a second and transport us back? Had an incident like that last month with J. Long story short, a woman from our past started calling him (for good reasons) and I tried to resist that knee jerk panic/WTF feeling and lack of trust. For about half a day I was the pre-piecing version of me checking phone records and questioning H. Then I got tired of it in umm.. about half a day.. lol. Decided I'm not gonna put myself through that panic and pain again. Even if he's being stupid, he's gonna have to deal with it because I just don't have the energy or the desire to dump that much negative into my life worrying about what he's up to. Felt great to take care of me for a change \:\) And that my friend is what DB, this board and this journey has done for my life. Even when I decide to pick up the rope, I get tired of the rope burns and let it go much easier. Still, I feel that we'll be "piecing" forever, but maybe that's the way M is supposed to be.

Sounds like you're finding freedom too \:\)

Sheila