LG, I had posted a reply on my other post. I wish I didn't accidentally start two identical threads. It's confusing me. I hope all went well at mediation today. Please keep me posted.
CL & Cat, Thank you for your support. Yes, it's been a daily struggle. At one point, it was so bad. My H did some serious waffling back & forth.
Yes, it is a daily struggle. A C said to me recently that M is like a baby... it needs constant attention, constant nourishment, and it cannot be left alone. It's so true.
While things have been going well with H and me, I have been backsliding, BIG TIME! I have been checking the phone, asking him questions about it, being emotional... all anti-DB stuff. We talked about it a bit, which may have been counter-productive.
Cat, you're right about the mirror thing. H gets discouraged when he feels like I don't trust him. I trust him to a degree, but when push comes to shove, I know what he's capable of. So, on the trust front, we have a long way to go.
I need to find a way to let my guard down. Will I ever not feel scared? Will I ever feel really safe in my M?
Last edited by peaceful_spirit; 11/06/0703:28 AM.
Married 9 years Kids 5 and 6 Bomb 2006 H back and forth for a year M now back on track
