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Funny, Cat, that you mention parties. Did I write that my kids both said that they DO NOT want to have separate parties from this point forward? That surprised me.

NC, I took many drugs over the past few years. I weaned off of them this summer and decided I didn't want to go that path again. My H would say bad things about them and assume I was only nice because of them no matter my protests that I was working on "me". I still have them if I feel the need. My Dr. told me that I had situational depression. When things are good I am happy, when I have marital problems I am down. And anyway, I never felt a real difference on them. I even got sleeping pills prescribed the first time he left but I didn't like how they felt so I didn't use them. I met with my therapist on Fri as a matter of fact. But now she is going out for surgery which sucks!

Thanks for the advice about him leaving early. Yes, I had debated whether to even mention it because I knew it would go nowhere. I was right. I was thinking about my daughter's feelings as well. But like everyone has said, no expectations is much easier but harder to do. I am continually working on that.

I have had such good posters helping me lately, thanks to all. I am feeling like I am slowly improving. I have laughed once or twice at least.

Sister-in-law stopped over to bring her present as she missed the party. I tried not to say anything bad, but I didn't mention him leaving-as nice as I could. She seemed puzzled about it too. But the usual generic advice from her - go to church, take care of yourself and the kids. She is once divorced (no kids) and re-married w/kids, so she can somewhat relate. Though she left him. But whatever.