I wish I just knew when he was going to come out of this! I truly hope that with the IC he starts tomorrow that he can work this out! He know is wrong, but just can't seem to help himself. He said that he just finds it hard to resist, as he didn't have alot of attention from females when we was younger and so now he can't believe that its happening to him! The sad thing is, these haven't been women who have it all together, these are both women who have been in bad relationships, and so are obviously looking for something to make themselves feel better, they couldn't really give a crap about him, they just want to feel better themselves! And because he is feeling crappy about himself he is ripe for it!!! And they know that! I do find it hard to detach myself from this, because I just can't understand how he can say he loves me, and then hurt me in such away. But I am trying, everyone says its not my fault, and I have to come to see that! I have done everything in my power to make us work, and I have changed alot about myself. However I have become insecure, which is never something I was before! and now I have to work at changing that! Its a hard journey! But it helps to know that I am not alone in this!!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!
