Okay, a little updating here. Last week I had a couple of blue days while H was out of town. Pulled myself out of it. Thought some of it had to do with that time of the month. But the morning after H came back, he talked to me a little about his depression (which I have felt was returning, I'd even told my girlfriend that a few days before.) Then I realized - I think I got blue because I was reacting to his depression! That's always been a problem - me REACTING to his moods, instead of maintaining my usually good mood and pulling him into that. I need to be careful of this.
I was glad H was able to mention it to me. Just before he left on that last trip, our copy of Newsweek came with a cover article about men and depression - I didn't get to read it because he took it with him - obviously he did read it.
Yesterday, he was talking about an office retreat he has set up for the fall. Then he jokingly (semi?) said next he should set up a retreat for men who are afraid of death and dying! Well, that was huge - I think that's the first time I've ever heard him volunteer that thought, even though I tried to get our MC to address it and always felt that was a big part of what was going on with my H.
H got to surf, sleep, surf some more, go to the movies with me and the kids (The Italian Job - fun). So I think Father's Day was good for him.
I am worried about his depression but relieved that he seems to have more insight into it and is willing to talk to me about it.
Off topic - S16 and I are starting a 12 week Body for Life challenge today! S needs to lose weight and get into shape, and I'd like to lose 10-15 more lbs. and get more muscle definition. Need to grocery shop, set up our meal plans, our workout schedule, and take our "before" pictures!
