With me, it was a spiritual conviction that caused a continual conflict in my soul. I could not go to church and do the job of teaching Sunday school when I knew that I was trying to live a "double life" in some ways. It just wasn't something I personally could do. It began to consume me. I went for weeks on end that I would miss church simply b/c I couldn't mix the two lifestyles.
Originally Posted By: Scottymack
Sandi, your post from yesterday about being involved in church, has hit home with me. As I have said before, my W is heavily involved in church, and I am thinking that this is what is causing her to have such mood swings. I cant believe anyone that makes church important in their life will not have an attack of conscience when they do these things.
When in MLC and having an A, I continued to go to church but only for a little while before the pews became more like hotseats. I stopped teaching Sunday school because that little voice whispered in my ear "who do you think you are to tell these children about Jesus and salvation? Look at you!". Eventually I quit going. When I had ended the affair and then began to come out of MLC, I went back to church and taught the kids a couple more times. That voice was right there one morning whispering to me again but instead of running away in shame when the voice again said "who do you think you are to teach these kids about Jesus and salvation?" I said "I am one who knows firsthand about His grace and His mercy."
Through whatever means he can, the enemy will always take a person further down than they want to go and he will keep them there longer than they want to stay. If a believer is caught up in this kind of struggle, one for their very soul, their husband/wife's job is to pray them through. To stand in the gap. A believer caught in this kind of struggle of the flesh has, in essence, become a non-believer. If you are a believer, you sanctify your unbelieving spouse - this is, you make them holy. You can't give up and leave them in the fire because Jesus didn't/wouldn't leave you there.
