All hope is lost/help

[Evie]

How was your weekend?

Mine was great considering, H & i took the boys to a bonfire display.

It's that time of the month coming up again and I can feel the resentfulness building up again...I'm angry today.

H seems to have landed really well on his feet, a landlady who does his washing, one bill to her a month and she then pays all the bills, he eats at work, showers at the gym and has the boys around his work commitments...How well has he moved on???

I had asked H if we could get together on Saturday night for Dinner to discuus arrangements for the children, but he couldn't have wanted to because he deleted the email without replying. I text him again to say i would be flexible with the arrangements, however I wanted a more rigid arrangement, i wanted him to have them alternate weekends, pick up from school on a friday and drop off on a Sunday at 11.30 am, he ignored that text message as well. He now has time on his hands because he has phoned me at work this morning and wanted to go through the arrangements, I said i can't at work i'm to busy, so he wants to sit down this week and thrash it out, he said he will write down his work commitments...!!! Hello, this isn't all about him, how selfish ...I will work around his work commitments mon - fri, but the weekend is when we run our business, I said in the text that he will need to sort out someone to look after the boys to cover when he has too work over the weekend, (he said previously that it was our business, we both benefitted, if he had to find someone to look after the boys, they would be paid from the business - fine suits me)because I wanted to know I had free time coming up so that I could make plans for when I haven't got them. That sounds fair to me? Am I been unreasonable? He has every night where he can go home alone, makes no decisions about tea, very little household chores/shopping, no homework, no dropping off and collecting from after school activities....

It going to be hard to DB this week and act as if because it seems as if everyting has been sorted for him, his only concern is the boys and when he can see them, he doesn't appear to be considering me at all???

Any nuggets of wisdom??

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