Well the counselor appointment is now postponed until the end of the week the counselor has jury duty today.
I honestly don't remember what made him mad. I still am not sure but with him it doesn't have to be anything. The whole converstion was just crappy.
Last night he called and we talked twice. Once for 15 minutes in which he told me he loved me and then he called back and we talked for 45 minutes. He still says he can't decide between me and OW. I feel like I am on a game show just waiting to be the winner and honestly I am not sure getting him back would be winning anymore. I mean I want him and I love him and then I think..... He has a BABY with OW on the way. (if it is his) He says it is because of course she has him convinced. Can I really get past that? We would now have another child to help take care of forever that was created because of his infidelety. I am strong but I wonder can I really do it? Would I be fair to the baby or would I resent it? Would it eventually destroy us anyway?
I am so confused. I don't even know what I am fighting for anymore. At what point is enough... enough?
M 32 H 39 SS 15, SD 12, S11, S9, D7, D6, D4 E/A 02/06 WAS 03/06 RH 05/06 On 07/07 told me he wants to leave again. On 08/11/07 Walked out again.
People say "When God closes a door he opens a window." They forget to tell you "It is hell in the hallway!"
