This is not going to fix itself over night. You lied to her for so long. How can you show her that you are not lying now?
I still don't see that you have answered my question about why NOW did she decide to end it. Why is that? What was the final straw? Saffie
I have no expectation that it will fix itself over night at all. Thank you for helping to keep me grounded.
I want to be nothing but transparent to my W. That is what made me vulnerable in the first place. 5 years ago I was diagnosed with a potentially fatal heart condition and she NEVER went/goes to the cardiologist with me. This is my SELFISH explanation, but I cannot tell you how lonely and abandoned I felt. It does not excuse MY DECISION to go outside of my marriage. My point is that I understand the desperation of wanting to be transparent and to be able to cry and share with your W/H all of your hopes and dreams and fears. I don't want to go down this path ever again. I was lonely and felt abandoned that the mother of our children couldn't be bothered to go to the cardiologist with me. To those who may ask, children can go too and babysitters were available.
I don't share this for sympathy, but to show that I hear what you are saying and I understand the need for that level of commitment. I want to give that every day!
