Ellie, Thanks for reading and responding to my thread (newcomers - never thought it would happen)and the positive encouragement - i need all the help i can get.
Sometimes i feel fine and the next moment i feel like my life is just falling apart. I have lost 20 lbs and feel good -- look good. Was thinking about changing hair too, to go with my new figure (I've been trying to lose weight, dieting with my daughter but this relationship stuff helped me drop it)
I want to go out with friends --my problem is i'm living in a new town 14hrs from my previous home with no relatives etc. i guess, i have to make some friends. I've been feeling the urge to do something --not at home waiting around.
It's funny until this moment it didn't register how secretive my H is. He moved out two months ago and I don't know where he lives just the town. He wouldn't give me or my children the address. We reach him on his cell phone --if its on. I've been turning my cell phone off unless i leave the children somewhere so they can get a hold of me. He calls almost nightly to say goodnight to the kids. sometimes he talks to me. I usually answer the phone, but i've been thinking that i will go out during the evening phone call and see if he starts to wonder where i am.
Well i've typed too much again --those emotional thoughts just don't stop! Thanks for the positive feedback and giving me hope.
