do you still feel that adreneline surge now? trust me, I had my runaway train day last monday and it scared the crap out of me. I am not a person who is in general angry (well trained as a child to suppress it and all that), and it scared me because so much was coming out of me, and I felt powerless to stop it.
my therapist told me if I should ever get to that place again, that physical release is really helpful. not cardio, but actual contact with something...racketball, batting cages, kick boxing, punching a pillow at the very least, something very physical like that. she told me once that she was so angry about something one time that she moved an entire mulch pile...the whole thing. a huge one. (or was it compost? can't remember).
try it, neph, really go nuts on something like that, ride that tidal wave, but do it this way.
(((HUGS)))
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
