Still Tryin's new thread 2

[NikB]

Maybe the rest are just hiding out... we can hope!!

Sorry the popcorn balls didn't work right. I don't know that I ever actually had one on a stick or anything, always baggies. Maybe that's common.

[S.T. _I Made It!]

hey Nikki, thanks.

ya, I'm 100% positive they're not hiding. that's okay. at least these have lasted longer than the last group.

okay, yesterday was a BAD day. we were ALL biting each others heads off, kids and parents, parent and parent. yikes. I felt like I was getting hit on all sides. was definitely taking it personal. which is hard not to do when everyone is yelling at you.

I was at lowes and nothing went right there, and ended up missing a craft party, so my whole day I didn't feel happy at all. I do feel really lucky because I went to bed that night and H actually said he'd give me a back rub if I moved over. wow. that never ever happens. I think he mighta felt bad for yelling at me so much. So I definitely took that, and it went a little further than just the rub. okay a lot further, but very glad about that because it's been too long since the last time.

I guess I've just really been slipping lately. the other day I finally decide to get out and took s3 and puppy to the park to meet with other moms, and guess what. my 3 year old throws a fit that he didn't want to go to THAT park. ug. I drove 20+ minutes to get there, and then spent 20 minutes dealing with that and then left. I would have just walked to the park w him crying, but the parking lot was just too far away from the truck and that would have been unsafe.

These are really the things that causes me to get so frustrated. I really have absolutely no life. it's so hard to get out when your family doesn't live here. I guess it's just going to take some time, and I just need to start doing something and get involved, or get my s3 involved.

[Confident_Me]

Hiya (((((ST)))))

I see you've been having a tough time and so my prayers are with you

I was wondering whether you've mananged to make contact with Ruth @Hope For Hurting Marriages yet?

I got this in their (Hope For Hurting Marriages) daily message this morning & I hope you have time to read through it and/or visit this other website: "First Aid for a Wounded Marriage"


Anyways, take care & be blessed ST (and keep visiting my thread )

[NikB]

((((ST)))))

Sorry that you're feeling down. So happy for your back rub though, that's great!!

Hmm.. so what things can you do to GAL and get out more?? Maybe we can brainstorm some ideas.

NOT to be negative or scary, but let's say your H walked out tomorrow. What would you be doing to cheer yourself up??

[Confident_Me]

((((ST)))))What would you be doing to cheer yourself up??

Is there any way you can start dancing again ST?

Dancing has been a real blessing to me AND I've managed to share my story with MANY other people, and with whom I was pleasantly surprised to find quite a few of them support my stand for my marriage to be restored

I've also discovered I've inherited my late Mum's dancing talent -----> YES, I'm not too shabby a dancer for someone who has only been dancing for almost 11 months now

Take care of yourself ST & we'll chat soon

[NikB]

Hey CM good idea! I enjoy my bellydance class a lot, and it's much lower impact than most dance things (or anyway easier to compensate.. there are several women in my class w/back issues). It's a lot of fun.

I can't claim ANY talent whatsoever (but cool for you CM!). Still worth it for the fun factor, though.

[S.T. _I Made It!]

thanks guys, I can't respond tonight, but I will tomorrow.... looks like I've got some goals to start on huh??

[NikB]

(((ST)))

Goals are good!

[S.T. _I Made It!]

thanks CM! I'm still praying for you too! on ruth, I haven't emailed her yet. Just been trying to play catch up for a while. I think you emailed me the first aid for a wounded marriage and I think I liked it and emailed it to a friend of mine. I'll check and make sure though.
And I didn't know you've only been dancing less than a year! I thought this was a lifetime thing for you. that's cool. yes, I'd love to dance. not sure what kind though, because I really love hiphop, r&b to dance to. Plus, my back needs to be in pretty good shape for me to dance and do it without hurting myself. and everything is so darn expensive. I guess that's why I'm more focused on my MonaVie, so that we can afford to do things and not be so stressed with credit cards.

I DID go work out last week, with much effort trying to get s3 to be okay in the nursery, but when I picked him up, he was happy and told me he'd let me do it again! And he even went to Sunday school the other day (he never saw me though- H drops them off at church since I have to practice in the morning and play for church) and he didn't cry so I'm sooooo glad about that.

So a goal for this week is to go work out again!

[S.T. _I Made It!]

Thanks Nikki!!! the back rub was definitely a suprise. I know I really need to GAL again. It's just really hard when a lot of ideas need money, or babysitting, etc. At least the gym has already been paid for, but I do have to pay $2 for s3, but that's not horrible... but I usually take him to the fun place (aka chickfila) and then we spend more money.

okay, really I don't mind using money... it's fun... but I know we need to budget tighter, especially when my H just like to buy things, like a laptop the other week. silly man.

I didn't take that to be negative or scary, about H walking out, that's a good way to think about it. Although I almost can't even imagine it, which is really weird huh.

I think maybe I could imagine better if I pretended everything was free. I definitely would like to take a dance class... maybe I could do salsa? but that might not be a good idea, cause don't you have to get pretty close to the guy??? I'd actually like to do creative things, like take pictures, or paint, but usually those things just come to me like an urge all of the sudden. like my music. I would also like to get with a band and work on my music too. my friend has been dealing with his own M problems, the guy who recorded my demos, and hasn't gotten to finish it, so I'm kinda stuck there a little bit.

I definitely want to get in shape though. So I think that will be my first goal.