I'm sorry if I sounded self-righteous. I sure didn't ever mean to sound that way! A lot of people that go by the name of "Christian" do go around tooting their own horns and if I wasn't already one....they would be enough to probably turn me away. But, "they" are not the reason I chose to become a Christian. I do feel like I have failed because of my involvement with the OM and I felt like Cemar was trying to be obnoxious with that little comment he made, but maybe it is that I still feel so ashamed and too sensitive about it. I know the depression is heavy today b/c I'm here crying as I'm trying to write. Anyway, your post was sweet and I appreciate it.
I just wished that I could go back in time and none of this mess had happened. But, of course, I can't, so I have to live with it. I know I get too sensitive about people always thinking I am the one that should ititiate the sex b/c that is all I have ever heard from my H and frankly, I am sick to death of it! I can't begin to tell you how sick I am of it. I don't know why I bother to try to explain myself to anyone anymore. The way I feel today....I don't care if I ever have sex again or not.
Anyway, thanks for what you said.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
