sandi, the "Christian" thing to do is to live the way Christ did, right?
What was his life like?
He suffered. He was hurt by his friends. He felt alone a lot of the time. People came to him for help, but they didn't really know him. He was betrayed.
What was his reaction to all of this? Did he parade around righteously, judging them and condemning those who hurt him?
No, he suffered, he wept, he prayed... and in the end (well, not the VERY end, but the end right before The End), he even felt abandoned by God.
Don't defend yourself to Cemar or anyone. Church or no church, who cares? It's not "Christians" who determine how to live like Christians; it's Christ. The Christian faith is about FAITH, not about what your neighbors say about you. If you want to be a Christian, study the behavior of Christ, when he was confronted with adversity, betrayal, abandonment, and pain. That's your model, not what's printed in some church bulletin, kwim?
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