Kiki, OF, thank you so much for writing to me here as well as via emails.

Yes, I'm just going to take this one day at a time.

As for her affair I can't be sure if it was a one time event or multiple but she says it happened only once and she felt terrible about it, she said "I couldn't believe that I could wait for so long and then throw it all away on a stupid whim". Then a day or so later when she found out about the disease she said she was completely devastated and wanted to die. The way she talks about it I feel she's telling the truth, besides it doesn't really matter if it was once or 6 times.

I do have the reason to believe that it happened about a month ago because about a month ago I saw a blue mark on her arm and when I asked her she said it was from the blood sample draw. I didn't ask her more details but I did wonder about it.

Me: 32|W: 34|D: 3yo
1st bomb: Feb 2006 (left one day, came back a week later)
2nd bomb: Aug 2006 (moved out, ILYBNILWY)
3rd bomb: Apr 2007 (filed for divorce)
4th bomb: <her finger on the launch button>