I don't know if its admirable or not, atgo, but it feels a bit better.
it makes me sad to think about considering myself an ex still. wonder when I'll get to the point when I do? no, I don't wear my rings anymore. but I miss them still...I do. I guess I could still wear them if I wanted to, but it feels like a joke to put them on, so I don't.
I'm sure your wife was genuinely happy with you, too, atgo. but its very sweet of you that her happiness makes divorce easier to accept.
I don't know if I'll ever accept the way h is divorcing me. yeah, I mean, I guess I'll accept it. and maybe it comes down to me being a somewhat judgemental person, but I don't know if I'll ever understand how he can just leave me, leave a family, w/o trying to work on the problems first. not only that, but then to leave in such a shoddy manner...the lies, the disrespect, the selfishness. I try to say I accept that that is just who he is, and a part of me does feel like that. but I don't think I will ever truly understand why he had to do this the way he did it.
I finished up some more stuff in the basement. have a ton of kids clothes ready to donate, and others to send off to friends. nice to clear that stuff out. just am feeling more and more sorted. will continue on tomorrow before the kids come home. talked to the kids briefly. I guess I sounded rushed because H didn't even try to talk to me. after I said goodnight to the kids, he jumped on and told me they went to see bee movie then he said I sounded like I had to go and I said I did, so I said bye and that was that. sad, because I wish he would miss me. but really, he has his family, he has ow, he has his kids. his life is pretty full without someone he doesn't want in it anyway.
wow, doesn't that sound a little sorry for myself?
I suppose I'll have moments like that for a while. just call me aresenic, I'm a little bitter.
still, feeling pretty good, so I guess still in a better place than I've been.
anyone want to take an over/under as to how long it takes h to put together a divorce proposal?
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
