I'm not really sure what this is about. Right now I'm only guessing how she must feel (she's gone to her girlfriends and is not talking to me right now) I'm guessing that she feels hurt, confused, scared, and I would venture that she feels betrayed...and I can't blame her. I've kept something from her, something that affect all of us, not just me. So yea, I would say a lot of it is a trust issue...I've lied to her.
RJ, I don't know what's going to happen to me and the truth is, I'm not afraid of that unknown. What scares the hell out of me is what I would be leaving behind. Kiddo, I'm fcking scared to death of that. Why is it that something that scares me so, why would I even imagine that I could go it alone or at least to this point? Miss IC is my heart and soul but why do I continue to hurt her by leaving her out?
