Learning to Trust

[LuvMyHusband]

Hi all,
It's been a few days. My H is back, well sort of. He left today to go back to CA to get the rest of his stuff and to finish some work he started at his parents house. I have so much anxiety about his leaving that my stomach hurts. He called right after he left because he dropped the sim card to his phone some where and asked if I would look for it. I did but can't find it. While in our master closet I looked where he had put some "stuff", he knew I knew it was there too. He took it with him. I don't understand why he can't just tell me what he's doing. It may be innocent but he still isn't talking to me about it. We had agreed to open passwords on our email accounts but he still hasn't given me his. I know he's afraid that I will be snooping but I feel like if I can then I won't need to. If that makes sense. We had a good week. A couple of times things got a little tense but we talked it out and I felt like things were better. I'm controlling my temper and my feelings regarding the disclosures that made about the OW. I think I've done well but it's really difficult. Anyway, I'm really stressed about whether he will return. Right now there just isn't any trust between us.