More complicated than I imagined...

[Michael Mc C]

Okay, had a bit of a backslide last night. Wine. Sucked. Started getting needy - idiot!! Should have gotten up and walked away LONG before that started. I tried making a point about how she gets sucked into her online world. First of all, I never should have even bothered, secondly, after a couple glasses of wine, it was exactly the wrong time to do it.

So she ended up exploding a bit. Told me that she feels like i'm trying to suck up all of her attention and energy. I tried to calm things down but it didn't work - I kept as calm as I could and when I realized we were headed for battle, I got up and walked away.

It's been a while since we've had a blow up. Tensions run high sometimes and I guess it's to be expected. God I hope I learn from this one!!
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So, she was invited to go spend a few days up at a friends cabin in Hunter (NY). It's supposed to be a bunch of women going to relax, drink some wine, etc. I've been encouraging my wife to go because I think it would be good for her to get out for a couple of days/nights and interact with the real world again. She's been hesitating - I am 99% sure it is because she's concerned our situation may come up in discussion.

Last night she said she may go tonight and just spend a single evening. I'm all for it. I want to pack her bag and get her directions. Anything to get her back out with people.

Here's the hitch - All of the other women that will be there are happily divorced and either remarried or engaged. However, I'm not going to stress about it. Even if they help validate her feelings and plans, in the end, it his her choice.

When she comes back tomorrow, I'll just act as if it was a relaxing time out with friends - and it may very well be just that.