Now I've done it...again #5

[nephartiti]

God, please help me be done with him. I know that I have to. If he showed up at my door right now begging for forgiveness, I don't know if I'd have the strength to tell him to leave. Fortunately, I know he will not be at my door. The point is, I have no strength when it comes to him. He knows it. He knows he can take advantage of me in so many ways. That has to stop.

I still have a whole bunch of his things here and mail. Eventually, I will have to deal with him. When I file, he will have visitation rights on paper.

Yes, I know part of him wants to get me back for him going to jail. This is his biggest grudge against me. Plus he still says I may "provoke" him again. He said this again on Wednesday.

Thank you everyone for checking on me. I will get through this.