This post is copied from my journal from Monday 29th Oct. so it chronicologically goes before the previous post.
So the build up to me sort of finding some *ahem* balls comes below. Unfortunately during the 'crucial conversation' I didn't get a chance to get out all the other nthings I needed to say like the importance of spending time with d (he knows this anyway), because he hung up on me.
Last week I was nervous all week at the thought of spending most of SAturday with him and d. I was going to say I was indirect about wanting some 'me' time but as it turns out I wasn't. I acutlaly did say straight out that I wanted some tijme alone and I might even not go out that night (cos d was supposed to stay at his place) adn just stay home. He seemed hurt and insulted that if I wasn't going to go out that I would rather spend time alone than spend time with him and d. Man, I mean, fo rme it was going to be tgense so I really didnt' fancy being tense _all_ day.
As it was, Saturday was tense and uncomfortable for me most of the day (d was clingy to me and didn't want to do anything unless I was right there with her) and anxious later in the day. He keeps nudging his way back in and gets all sad when I try and block him . Then I feel guilty, let him in, then go all passive aggressive on his a** because I resent him.
