CVA - Not sure I have figured anything out?

[Not Much Left]

Just sitting here basically numb. My kids called me, S9 concerned about me, S7 clearly still upset, S5 wanting to know what I'm doing and daughter was in the shower.

A lot of regrets and fear right now. A lot of really tough / hard situations ahead, all pretty much on me and wondering how I will deal with.

Angry at my W, her friends, family all of it.

Now I have to get an attorney and spend even more money. I feel like I am flushing 10s of thousands down the toilet. A lot of hard work looking to our kids future flushed because my W is selfish. That is how I feel about it.

Numb watching Vanessa Marcil, can't even get the energy up to watch a movie.


Waiting for S9 to call but his mom must have talked him out of it. Too late now.

C