New to Piecing -- again

[peaceful_spirit]

Hi folks,
I've been here before, but stopped posting when things with my H went downhill again.

So, my stroy is so long, so I'll try to sumarize...

Jan '06 - ILYBNILWY
Feb - H moved out
Feb - Found out about OW
March - H came home - for a week
April - Mediation -- headed for D
May - H came back the second time saying he never loved OW, that I'm the only one he ever loved but somewhere along the way, he lost his ability to love.
June - H started seeing a C

The next year was filled with lots of back & forths. H would say he wants nothing but me and our M and our kids, but coulnd't completely let go of OW. Each time I found out about any contact with OW, I kicked him out (he still had an appt of his own). And everytime I kicked him out, he went to OW only to find out within days that he didn't want to be with her. That pattern repeated a number of times. I'm leaving out a lot of details here.

Flash forward to today: H has moved back home (since May '07). It was a very rocky summer. H almost moved out again. He is now with a new C who is focused on changing behavior (as opposed to the talk it out traditional therapy). H and I have made great progress. His contact with OW is over (I THINK). But we still have setbacks and I find that every day is a struggle. Keeping a M together is a constant battle.

Throughout this whole process, there has been progress both with me and H. But it is still hard.

So, I am giving this board another try in hopes that I will continue to be "piecing".

This M stuff is hard work!