I too, "found stuff" and it turned out, after going back and looking at the number, I had turned it around in my head and accused him of calling her at work. This was over a month ago, while we were camping. I worried about it, as I feel crazy and he held on to it because the next "blow up" came around and he said "You'll never trust me anyway, why try." I threatened to pack my bags and go back across country to our home up north just as he was driving off to work that morning. Horrible, horrible DB-ing.
But.
Turns out sometimes blow ups get ya talking and facing what it'd feel like to lose it all again. I had to go through the next day, insecure, and worried if this would be the day he called her to say he'd might have made a mistake... a shoulder to cry on that could lead to???? Maybe I needed to see that he wouldn't, y'know? It helped us. I'm finally not as insecure anymore and I thought I'd never get here.
Finally I stopped getting that pit in my stomach when I saw him talking on the phone. Finally I quit checking his messages/missed calls/etc., every time he went in the shower. It gets better kiddo. You're doing better than me because you're going to a zumba class!
What is a zumba class?
Just thinking about you and stopping by to wish you the best! kel
