new here. Feel like dying

[ms ladybug]

I think the reason he's moved out are all the same. He claims (and he's right) that I don't respect him. My MC reccomended the book Love and Respect, and I've learned a LOT about what respect is, and what I've done wrong.
I know my husband doesn't think I can change. After all, I told him last time that I changed, and look where we are.

Give him weeks...that seems like forever.
I wake up every morning thinking that I must be dying. Sleep is barely there.Every time I hear a noise in the house I think, "he's home!"...of course he's not.

The pain is so intense.