Friends...You know at times I get confused on my thread for one reason....I use this board for 2 purposes...to keep in touch with some pretty incredible souls I have encountered here and mainly to "journal" and futily try to stroke my writing muscle. Most of the time I am not reaching for answers on this thread because I would never hamper others with my swiping and waving for lifes answers. You all have wonderful words and I have really cherished each and every word. I sense frustration from you guys and really understand that. I love the support and admire all of your thoughts. Just to give a "snapshot" of Yesterday I had some email biting with my W over tonight's festivities..she is going out with her friends for awhile and I decided that since she was going out I would FINALLY have a guy come over from work to work on some jamming and music. She was angry because she thought I would be having "that girl" over. I told her not even a thought in my head...just want an opportunity to play music for a change. It got resolved because I just said go out have fun and I will do the same. So anyway, nothing new to really relate..PEACE