(((HUGS))) yep, I agree with braveheart, he would have anyway.
if you haven't, get db/dr and read. it may help. figure out what you want, what you believe in, not what other people believe is right or possible.
I wish I had some magic words, I know how intense the pain can be. if you aren't seeing one, I highly recommend a therapist. mc would probably be a very good idea, too, if you aren't doing that, but your own ic is vital.
take care of yourself. (((HUGS)))
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
