Now I've done it...again #5

[nephartiti]

Thank you Husband and Morgan. No, I won't go dark from here. This is my life line.

I've really been thinking about my reasons for still holding on to this R. I want my kids to have an in tact family. That is number one. However, I am beginning to think that my H just isn't capable of that. Obviously, he is not now. I'm not sure he ever will be. It hurts because I can not understand it at all.

When we were driving, he was talking about an article he read about the demise of empathy and selflessness in the youth of our society. He was asking if S2 showed empathy to D when she cried or was hurt. I said, "Yes, he does all the time." H said he knows he's not setting a very good example in this department right now, but he hopes that S2 learns these values.

I want to just hit him with a 2x4. He seems to see his weaknesses. I guess that is the first step towards change. I see mine also. I admit change does not come easily. It is work and it takes determination. I have fallen many times on this journey. I am going to rest a while. Then I will pick myself up and keep walking, with or without H.


S2 is asleep so I'm going to take D and go lay down. I will catch up on everyone's threads soon.