Aud,
It always warms my heart to hear the good things your H is doing for you and you are ACCEPTING them. That is a major step because again your hands are the ones that are clean.
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I followed him around for a day, followed him to OW's home, watched him get in a car and drive with her to a mall. All the while, he's calling me, chatting and being silly. He called me more times that day than he ever has. I don't know for sure if anything more than a trip to the mall happened. It could have been as simple as that, it could have been an all-weekend sex-fest. Either way, he definitely was not behaving faithfully.

Ouch! No matter how one looks at this, it is a barb. An unjust barb at that. Whatever happened makes little difference. You are one smart lady and don't need anything from this barren mind to guide you. I just want to say I'm sorry you had to witness that. As far as the "what if's" in my experience they become "what now's" IF YOU LATCH ONTO THEM. I realize quite well the "release" needing to be expelled on this board. Anytime Aud, we are all here.
There is no possible way to relive the trauma, because you are now equipped with "the your life" switch....you can push it anytime and it will be HIS choice waht to do from there..

My thoughts are with you Aud (what little I could collect) if you need them. I trust you and your judgement on making this either spilled crumbs or a fall platter of food....peace