Truly Piecing once and for all!

[Heartbroken]

Hello All,

We have had three sessions of dialogue and H gets it going each night - we both are enjoying being able to express our true feelings and understanding each other.

But last night (after a couple of trick or treats - 12 oz) H was even more open and I think he feels comfortable enough to tell me he still wants to D - he is not 100% sure but he feels he will never be able to get his feelings back for me. H said he sees/appreciates all the changes I have made yet it has done nothing for his feelings for me, for us. I said I feel it's too soon and we should just continue with Retrovaille and take it day by day. H cannot really explain why he is unhappy and he's not sure leaving me will make him happy. Not sure what I should do next - getting real tired of being the only cheerleader in this R and always being the positive one.

I feel he has not forgiven himself in having the A and he is punishing himself by not opening up and letting his walls down - and letting me in...I so do not like this Alien in my bed...

I too like Limbo am just so so so tired and I deserve better...

Not a great day today - bummer!

HB