Chris, I feel you on the drinking thing. That is something that I am sure she does not feel it a big deal, at least for my W it is not. I get anything from ILY to I am not sure to I missed you when she has been drinking. Not that it is the main issue, but can become one. I quit drinking for many months because I know I wanted to "feel" the emotions instead of numbing them, my W has been drinking tons more. Pullbacks are commonplace and suck everytime! Be strong in your convictions and the person you are becoming. It will all work itself out with clarity, keep pursuing that.