MK's Last Thread Happy Halloween Everyone! The last of the trick or treaters are gone. Whew!
I had a major anxiety attack and had to call my SIL's mom to calm me down. I felt weird about having my H in my home all night for the Halloween festivities. It went well. We basically acted as if all night. It was exactly like being married all over again. he did the pumpkins while I did the costumes.
Then after he got tired and left I felt a real sense of detachment. Maybe after what has happened with neph and Morgan has made me realize how my H is in the same place, he acts like he regrets being a father but has not admitted it ....yet. It was a perfectly executed night and he was still not really there. No sentiment. Nada. It all felt kind of forced. Do you know what I mean?
I am done with him. How many times do I have to write it before it comes true. He was here but he was not here. then he left to be a lech somewhere else. That taints everything good he even attempts.
Last edited by mkultra; 11/01/0704:27 AM.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
