B2M, I am so sorry about your grandfather and your H acting so mean to you. During such a time the abandonment feels at its worst. During all this my mother has been sick so it has been very difficult for me, too.
We are on a very similar timeframe and I am feeling much the same as you. I have not had any move backs and am discouraged by lack of progress, but I am kind of where you are in being tempted to file. I am also getting the attempts to get me to agree to things verbally. I have seen a second lawyer who struck me as excellent, but I have not told H about that. Instead, I steer away from legal discussions.
Then I thought Why should I file? It is H's idea. Let him pay the filing fee and do the work. I told him he is driving so I will see what he does.
I have decided to let him go. If he files, he files. I will drag my feet but as I cannot stop him, so be it. If he doesn't, so be it.
M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D