Still Dancin'

[Heimlich]

I just don't think she feels that way at all, and I think that realization is what has helped me with my acceptance of things too. I don't want her to come back out of convenience -- I want her to come back because she loves me again.

Totally agree with that second sentence -- you don't want to be the fallback choice. However, you don't know what she's thinking/feeling. Don't mindread, eh?

I can't recall, did you ever write her an apology? If you want her to know it's genuine, what until after the D is final and tell her how you sorry you are for having made her feel poorly. After teh D, if she thinks you're still pursuing, that's her problem. Just something to think about.

BD