Now I've done it...again #5

[nephartiti]

I don't know what possessed me to drive over there last night. Then I don't know what possessed me to go knock on the door with kids in tow. OW's boyfriend answered the door. I channelled lwb and politely asked "May I speak to my husband please?" Ow's BF shut the door. H came out five min later.

I just looked at him. He said we had to leave because "they" were calling "someone". That's how we ended up driving around. He is so full of lies. All of it. Lies. He can't even keep them straight at this point. He INSISTS that it is platonic and that he sleeps on the floor.

The kids were sleeping, but S2 eventually woke up cranky. I brought the kids home. H fell asleep on the couch while I was putting them to bed.

This morning he was perfectly pleasant. Weirdo. He said that he knows he hasn't been a good father lately and that his behavior is very selfish, but he feels like he has to take care of himself right now. He says he's been thinking about his mom a lot (she died 5 1/2 years ago), and sometimes he feels like a child. He started crying then and said that he has to tell himself that he loves himself. I hugged him then. He really is lost. He says he has things to work out. He says he has also thought about what he has put me through and he is ashamed to face my family. I told him my family respects that this is my life and my family. If they can't respect my decisions, then it is on them.

Anyway, when it comes down to it, nothing has really changed except that, in my heart and mind, I now have no doubt that there is another woman. It is the same person as the June phone calls and the same person I saw him with a few weeks ago. Friends my ass.

I don't know what the deal is with the BF. Either he is really naive or just a doormat. My SIL doesn't believe he is the boyfriend, but I have talked to him twice and I believe he is. He is "pretty sure they are just really good friends".

There you have it folks. Yes, I have definitely done it again. Actually, H did. I just exposed it.