Hardly faking it anymore: Puddle's third thread

[Pudmuddle]

Hi Puddle,

This post hit very close to home for me. Even though it has only been a month, I am starting to feel this exact way. Maybe because we are not burning energy (bad, negative energy)on it like we were before it seems as if we've lost the will to fight.

And I feel like there is a point where we get detached and it feels very strange. Perhaps also something we have never felt before. Maybe you're not really letting it all go, but getting to a point where you realize you cannot control this and make it instantly better. Probably also it feels very strange to not be sharing your every feeling with someone who you used to do that with. And if you know me...that was ALL the time, lol.

I think the judge's cautions are wise only to the point of, you never really know what is going to cause someone to snap and make them do things they might not have done before. For example, I just found out my younger brother is going to jail for a long time because he has been molesting his own 13 year old daughter!!!!! (yes another major life issue I have) You never would have ever guessed that about him...he's sweet, loving beautiful gentle soul, but something went terribly wrong inside his head. I guess my point is, you just never really know (hence the mindreader thing we are all guilty of).

I have been cautioned about what my husband may do to, especially since I make more $$$ than he, but he swears he wants to make this all as amicable as possible. But you can only believe half of what you hear...

Oh and Heim, I believe there is a website, called of all things, volunteers.org.:)