We are done in so many ways...but I am still here.

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In all honesty, nothing has really seemed to work. I have detached and GAL. I have tried to stay out of her way and let her go do what she wants. I have asked for reason why we, as a family, do not do anything. I have tried to initiate activities for the two of us. I have tried to just be a friend. I have "gone cold". I just think that she does not want the marriage any more and is waiting until the OM, who I heard her tell him that she wants to have his children, will let her move in with him. Through all of this she has told me with no remorse that she does not care if I slept with other women, that she is bored in our R, that she does not have fun when she goes out with me, and that I am to blame for the person she has become in life.

I have read DR and the only thing that I have left is the LRT. I am ready to use it just to get resolution to the matter. She still lives with me but we sleep in seperate rooms and lead seperate lives outside of our son.

One of the toughest parts about all of this is that tomorrow is my birthday. She has pestered me for gift ideas and all I want to say is honesty and confront her on the remark to the OM I overheard. I am not a coward, I am going to confront her about it. I want to have some things covered for me and my son before I do so.

Hope that helps...