oh honey, I so know what you feel! my skin crawls too when my H has to stay over night and I find myself wondering "what if he is staying over somewhere else?" It is hard to feel safe after all the lying. We have lots of negative history to eradicate from our hearts, it will stay on our brains but we don't have to let those memories rob us of the good memories we can make now.
Yea,those what ifs are like lying snakes, just laying there, waiting for us to have a good say to mess with us. Because we are vulnerable, because we are choosing to open our hearts again, old scars get a bit restless.
Hope you feel better hon, and vent here any time))))))))))))))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
