It is a wonderful feeling to know know that you will be OK no matter what. It is as if we went through a ring of fire and came out OK. A cute man took my hand the other day for a brief minute but I did get that weird fluttery feeling in my stomach. I will not go out with this guy but that feeling, that possibilitythat I could even look at another man was kind of an awakening. Donna is right that we did do everything in our power to keep our family together but Dr. Numan said we have a new family NOT a broken family. Any family can be seen as BROKEN even if they are intact. IT is not ideal but it IS A FAMILY. No one can look at our homes and say that is not a family. I can look at my H's life and say that, but not my home.
Morgan, I just want to say thank you again. We are still in this limbo land. I am not sure if divorce land is any better though. My neighbour has been separated from her H and she feels safe in status quo. For some strange reason neither spouse will even file for legal separation. I guess some marriages are harder to dissolve than others. I have a feeling that is the case with us. For some reason we are all still attached for many reasons. Feeling detached may be empowering. Whew. Let's work out, eat well, make jokes, and kiss a boy, I mean a man. New goals. Kiddiing about that last one.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
