Yea I got the I need to follow my own advise. Something happened in that moment when I was laying on the bed crying. I really have not thought about my situation since then. I told you I dont trust it but it is still here. I hate what I used to call home. Hate being there. Hate looking at it. Hate smelling it. It is the albatross around my neck. It is the last thing my wife is clinging to. She signed the paperwork this morning. I faxed it as soon as I got to work. Did not even put my stuff in my office. She really had no choice but to do it. In 2 months she will no longer be a real estate agent. I nor she can afford to pay the dues anymore. Just goes to show you how desperate the stitch has become. I am making new memories. With my kids. With my friends. It is funny/interesting that all of the stitches are surrounded by drama. I told myself I wanted a drama free life. for the past 4 days I have. My wife took my daughter to her work to eat on Sunday. Her friend was working and my daughter said she hated him. I had to LOL at that one. We got to this point together. She made the choice to go at it this way. I fought it. It did not work. People only listen when they want to. Including me. I am listening now. I got my second bomb. I WTF up. I am no longer throwing pity parties with me as the guest of honor. I am 36 years old living at my Moms house, broke, my wife does not want to be with me, and I am happy. My friend told me this this weekend "If you live slow, you die slow." Time for me to get out my new tools. Forget about finding the old me and build the best and fastest me I can. 5 years I have been waiting on life to come to me. Guess what it didnt. Time for me to go after it. Hopefully this only posts once.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
