I still don't know what has made her decide this now? Also you may now be living to make her happy and you may have been the same in the beginning but for THREE years her happinnes was not your priority. Whatever you say, for three years not wanting to be lonely and wanting to be loved were your priorities.
Your M obviously had issues and those have not been addressed. I applaud your resolve to work on things now but if she had problems showing affection before I would have thought she would be even more cool now. You have got some hard work to do as far as I can see - you need to prove in actions what you are saying in words. Did you ever agree to break off your A before and then not do it?
saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength