One of the worst days of my life yesterday. Eyes are like grapefruits today. Thankfully it is halloween so I have a grim reaper costume covering my face. I would love to wear it everyday! Some really hurtful things were said. Mostly him to me. This is why I don't talk to him generally. Then hysterical I called my brother. Big mistake. All the advice I get from he and sister in law is bad. Change locks, change alarm, get daycare so he doesn't come over, sell his stuff on ebay, take him to court. IF he comes to pick up the kids don't let him in the house anymore. They are ruthless and hurtful. Great for the kids as well. They need to learn the truth or something they tell me. BS. Only hurt more. H told me he doesn't drink or party as much now that he is away from me. That really hurt. Then he told me how I burnt all my bridges. I held the phone away because it was too painful to hear. I asked why he would turn the knife he already put in my back. He says there is NO WAY he would ever come back, he made his decision. I told him D7 is having school problems. Not his fault of course, he says he had the same problems as a kid. Everything he did he did for the better. Tells me I think too much of myself and to get over it. I need to think of the kids first. Like he did by leaving, right? Sorry to rant.
Me 43 H 44 S-13 D-9 Separated 90 days 6/28/05 H Says he is done-10/2/06-day after 18th anniv Moved out 10/2/07-to father's house-day after 19th wedding anniv-GF now H Filed for D 7/08
