You are correct. Thank you for politely pointing that out to me. Sorry for you, but I was thinking SM when I posted that. Bless your heart.....I hate that so much for you. It must be awful. I have to tell you something, sweetie. I got to the place that when I wanted out of the house so badly, one of my biggest reasons was so I could have all the privacy and freedom on a computer of my own and nobody could tell me what I could or couldn't do or come in a look up everything I had been saying to OP or see what sites I had been searching. It was that bad! I look back, now, and it amazes me that I was in that mental state, but the addiction had gotten a hold on me until it was my main focal point of the day.
I think a woman is either is so much denial of her own reality and she is trying to relive something through this interntet relationships that she is not getting in her own life or else it is just pure entertainment that is more important to her than her own M. Whatever it is, it is serious enough that it take over a life to the point of destroying a M. It almost happened to me. Oh sure, I had the OM on my mind at the time, but in all honesty......if it had not been him (and this was what I was thinking in the back of my mind) I could communicate with some other men. How sick is that? Pretty bad, isn't it? I don't enjoy telling that about myself, but if it can help anyone understand the mindset of someone that has gotten that addicted to that type of ......I don't know what word to use here.....ego strokes, emotional fixes or whatever word you want to give it. It is like a feel-good drug and you want to keep going back for more. That is the scary part. After a while, that isn't enough and you want to add more. I started out very innocently with just conversation with somebody chatting while we played games on line. We formed a friendship and he was not interested in anything else. But, he was funny and I looked forward to playing our favorite game every night. He would flirt but it was all in fun. He warned me not to fall for him and I thought he was arrogant b/c I was M and I wasn't going to do that! But he was filling a void in my life. When he stopped (b/c he could tell I was getting to attached to him) I felt so lonely and didn't know what was wrong with me. Then, it happened that a couple of other men came along on the same game site and I added them to my "friends list" so we could chat even if we weren't playing a game. After that, it led to other things. So, it's very dangerous and I wished I could tell others to be careful about these games where you can visit and chat while you play.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
