I cannot tell you how much better I feel. Honestly. I went to an AlAnon meeting tonight, and just felt stronger.
My bff has told me time and again that H hasn't even begin to feel his pain. She may be right. But I have traveled so far along the journey. He hasn't even taken the first step. And I am leaving him, sitting there in the mess he made.
I spent the first $500 at the L's office today--2 hours. There was some good financial news, and I was able to get her some other pertinent info that we can use during the collab/negotiations. I really like her; very smart.
A cousin from Bklyn called me on the way home--an offer for anything that they have--house, visit, babysitting, $, friendship, someone to call in the middle of the night, etc. My ever-growing list. Now, just to keep up with everyone
I think I am going out on a date Fri night. Nothing formal, but he has been calling and emailing me every day. The attention is a nice boost. I would even welcome the friendship (although he has very nice arms...).
Life is finally looking up again. I think that I am going to take my aunt up on the Thanksgiving offer and go there that weekend. Let H go and sit with the family who will judge without words, looking at how 2 of the three youngest generation are not there with them. I have somewhere else to be, somewhere else to be welcomed and supported and loved. Its time he started to live the life that he has been asking for so much.
