Oh, no, does that mean no Barry Manilow either????
It sounds like you are at 'peace' with your decision. Many of us don't know how our sitches are going to turn out but no matter what, all of us can say that in the end, if it doesn't turn out, you gave it your best shot. You'll never wonder about that.
May you be as focused in the next few months as you have been in the past few months.
