I don't know if I should continue to DB.

[forward]

Much to my surprise, H asked if we were having a mediation session. I told him I cancelled because I want to take D2 out.

Then he said we need to talk about things--he wants to send his lawyer what he needs. I guess he wondered about mediation because that was the chance to let me down easy.

I'm not fighting any more. Not trying. H can have his divorce. I cannot take his rejection any more.

Then H said he had a dream in which I was very ill. Hmm, wonder what that symbolizes.

I had lunch w/Crushee and he said some things that made him less attractive.

The next few months have got to be about me.